How Time Flies

Delilah is 3 months old today! I can't believe it, the time is flying by..yet, at the same time, seems to be going so slowly. Every day I wake up and look at her and thank the gods that my beautiful girl is healthy and here to share the world with us. She wakes up with a smile on her face, full of enthusiasm for the day ahead. She's such a joy.

Speaking of her being a joy, I have a hard time with people who ask me, "is she a good baby?" ... um, ALL babies are good, aren't they? I mean, it's not like babies are in the habit of knocking over liquor stores! "Oh, you mean, she's good because she's not crying all the time? That's because she has all her needs met BEFORE she has to resort to crying! I wear her in her carrier when we're out (or Ben does), she has a clean diaper, she's fed as soon as she starts showing me cues she's hungry, and she's HAPPY! Why would she cry?" Ok, she cries when she's overtired, but that's another story. Sometimes I wanna cry when I'm tired, too!

As more and more time goes on, I'm left to ponder what I'll do when it's time to go back to work. Yes, officially I am going back. Unofficially, there's no way in hell I'm going to leave Delilah to someone else to raise while I go to slave for a few bucks...especially since child care would eat over half of my income, anyway...so what's the point? I can't see it happening. So I guess I'll have to find some other way to make some sort of income, at least what I make on maternity leave, and stay home to raise our baby.

Staying home to raise your own child... how novel! I think more people should do it. I think it's very affordable, if you don't have an excessive lifestyle (2 cars, 400 thousand dollar house, dining out all the time, etc). I believe you can be very happy with less STUFF. A smaller house, one (or no) car, home cooked meals, perhaps even growing your own food, all these things are attainable, and reasonable. It amazes me, the consumerism disease that is killing our society. But that's another discussion for another day.

Some day (soon, I hope!) we will have our "Semi-Self Sufficient Hobby Farm". The sooner the better. I want chickens (for eggs), goats (at least two), maybe a cow...a huge vegetable garden, and a fruit garden..apple and peach trees, raspberries, strawberries...I dream of the day where we could grow most of our own food. Spring chickens and broiler hens will supply us with chicken meat, we will likely outsource our beef and grains but could we do everything else ourselves? I think it's doable. Now we just need to find the house in the country with a little property and build the outbuildings for the animals. Can you picture me and Delilah, going out into the yard each day to care for chickens and goats and to tend the garden? I can't wait.